This past weekend was very, very busy! Friday was my baby shower at work, and then Saturday we had our childbirth class, then that evening I went to a big Just Between Friends sale (a huge consignment sale in my area) and bought Emersyn lots of clothes for as she gets older, a Baby Bjorn ($14!), several books and SHOES! Sunday we purposefully tried to take it a bit easier- March 4th marked 5 years since Blake had asked me to marry him, and it was also our original due date.
I cried on Sunday, watching my belly move as Emersyn bounced around, and remembering the baby we never got to watch move or grow. It's such a confusing feeling, missing our first baby so much, but also being so grateful for the baby we'll welcome in just a few short months- we wouldn't have Emersyn if our first baby had lived. Honestly I just don't like to dwell on those thoughts, as there is nothing we could have done differently, and no way to wrap it all up in a nice little happy package. We went to Panera and church, and then I spent the day washing Emersyn's clothes and putting a lot of gifts away in her nursery. The day was not as hard as I expected it to be, and I'm sure that my big ol' belly has a lot to do with that. No matter what led us to this point, I'm so excited to meet her, and grateful to be her mama.