Thursday, April 14, 2011

Is a baby boy in my future?

I dreamed last night that I had a baby. I've dreamed about having kids before, but it was usually accomanied by something that made it pretty obvious it was a dream- like I'd look up and discover I'd given birth on a beach while floating in space (I have weird dreams). This dream was very different, very real. Almost like I was seeing a glimpse of my future child. That future child was a little boy. He had a head of dark hair, chubby little cheeks, and skinny legs. When I was looking at him I could feel myself loving him. We named him Owen.

This is the first time I've ever eally thought that our first child could be a boy. I mean logically I understand that we have a 50/50 shot either way, but in my head, I always pictured us with a little girl. I have three nieces, I'm used to girls. Little girl nurseries sucked me in, and we talk about girl names more than boys. I've even found myself ordering more "girl" props for my photography business because in the back of my head I think, "I'll need more girl props because we'll have a girl". And I'm not even pregnant, so yes, I completely understand how crazy that sounds.

When my mom was pregnant with me, the doctor was convinced I was a boy. And he tried to convince my parents of this as well. However, my mom says that she KNEW she was having a girl. She refused to even discuss boy names (even though both of my brothers had potential alternative girl names). This was all when she was actually pregnant with me, and I see a lot of women having feelings one way or the other when they're preggo, but what about beforhand?

Am I as crazy as I think I am?

1 comment:

  1. You arent crazy, babies are a wonderful thing to dream about and I have two boys and they are awesome!