I want it now.

I keep reminding myself that it is fine if we don't get pregnant our first month trying.  I know that if we did, we would be the exception, not the rule.  I know that there are a lot of women out there that try month after month and still aren't pregnant.  I know that we have plenty of time in our window of time to conceive, and that financially, we'd probably be better off if it does take a few months.

But I want it now.  I think part of it may be that since the day we decided we would move up our timeline, we've been dreaming and planning and waiting to have a little one.  And all of the lead up, going off birth control, taking prenatal vitamins, charting... it feels like we've been at this a lot longer than we really have been.

I know I sound like a complainer, and probably even like a whiny little brat- "I want it now".  So I'm praying for patience, and I'm praying that things happen in God's time, and not mine.  And if God's time is different than mine, I pray again for patience, and acceptance.

But the brat inside of me is stomping her foot and insisting on getting her way.