Wednesday, August 24, 2011

I want to remember

I took a day off work today- lets call it a mental health day.  Because honestly, I've felt like I was losing it the last few days.  We're nearing the end of another two week wait, and I don't think I'm pregnant (neither does the pregnancy test I took this morning).  We've been trying to figure out finances- including how to pay for my trip to the ER- and that has stressed me out.  Work is... frustrating, that's all I'm going to say about that.

To top it all off, right about now I would have been about 12 weeks along, which means that all the other people that got pregnant around the same time are now announcing it on Facebook.  With similar due dates.  And while I know I should be happy for them, for some reason I didn't think about other people getting pregnant at the same time as me (or maybe I blocked it), and it stings.  So yup, yesterday I cried a lot.  That's what I was doing when my poor husband came in to sit next to me last night.  And like the selfish, emotional person I am, I was bawling to him that everyone else was getting what they want, and we weren't getting what we want.  Do you know what he said?

"I have what I want- I have you."

I won't lie and say it completely changed my attitude, but it did help.  And I want to remember that he feels like I'm enough.


  1. oh sweetie. I took a neg test yesterday and got my fabulous effing period today, so I hear you on all fronts. I'm an emotional wreck today, too, after our first cycle of trying was a bust and don't worry---I am supposed to be 26 weeks right now so all I can think about is how cute my belly should be.

    Big hugs right now, mama. Hang in there and I'll do the same. Also, your husband's comment almost made me cry (par for the course).

  2. Your husband sounds like such a sweetheart. Lucky you!

    My hubby is no good at comforting me when I cry. He says stupid things.

    *Sending truckloads of baby dust your way*

  3. That's a good hubs you've got there. :)

  4. Sending you positive thoughts to you and your hubby! But how amazing is your husband and his love and support for you!

  5. Ohhhhh my gosh! What a wonderful man you have!!! SUCH a great response, and so true! I'm so sorry for your hard time :/ I think it's good you took a day of, as well! I hope tonight is better for you, and that you enjoy that husby of yours!!! Go on a date! :D


  6. I just read this post and started crying at my desk...yup, the same tears I cried at your wedding when he sang to you. I'm so happy that you have been blessed with such an amazing husband! I love you both so much and I couldn't be happier for you two right now!