First of all, thank you to everyone that let me know what they experienced in terms of old life new life experienced in regards to having kiddos. It really does help to know that I'm not completely off my rocker because I'm scared of having a child. I was so tempted to not even address my fears on here, because I was afraid it meant we should rethink our decision, or at least put it off a bit longer, and I didn't want to do that. I was also afraid that it meant that I would sound like I wanted sleep and sushi more than a baby, which is also not the case.
Ya'll made me realize that making the decision to have a child does not mean you have to be thrilled about giving up the things you're giving up. You just have to be willing to do so, and Husband and I are definitely at that point. Part of my fear is also the not knowing- will I have bad morning sickness, when/ where will Husband find a job, where will we live next year... but there will always be things we don't know, or that surprise us. That's life.
Many of you have heard of the horrible tornado that hit Joplin, MO. Missouri is our home state, and Husband's hometown is very close to there. Over this past weekend, we were there, moving some family of his into a town about 10 minutes away from the damage, a move that has been planned for months. We saw firsthand how quickly life can change, and I grieve for those that have lost their homes, their jobs, and their loved ones.
Joplin will be rebuilt, but you can't replace people. They are what matter, and in spite of our doubts, and all of our fears about parenthood, we know that in the end, building our family is what matters to us.